"I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day."

"I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day."

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(no subject)	[Mar. 31st, 2008\|10:13 am]
UC: $18639 + OSU: $16257+ Both universities are in large cities in Ohio. Cincinnati is 3.5 hours away, while Columbus is 2 hours away. I'm fine with either. UC-residents enjoy: choices -- like community- or suite-style living and lifestyle floors, where you live with other students from your college, major, athletic team or honors program cable TV, air conditioning, microfridge, and high-speed Internet connections in every room -- one Internet connection per person! sports and recreation facilities on campus lounges with big-screen TVs, pool tables, grand pianos computer labs on campus fresh and healthy dining options, cooked-to-order laundry facilities and meeting rooms in every hall; computer labs and hall or floor kitchens in most halls better grades, higher GPAs and better graduation rates OSU: Combination microwave and refrigerator in every room Telephone and local phone service Washers and Dryers in every building or complex A staff of Resident Advisors to assist students Air-conditioning (in buildings where this is standard) Cable tv in every room High speed internet access (known as ResNet) More to come.
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(no subject)	[Sep. 23rd, 2007\|07:57 pm]
I don't know how I really feel about all this. The thoughts are all mixed up inside of my head. I don't even know. I don't know
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(no subject)	[Jan. 14th, 2007\|01:10 pm]
I love rain. It's so poetic when it falls, like the rain hitting the ground is beautiful. I don't like, however, when the sky is grey and cloudy and it looks like it's going to rain and it never does. It's depressing. But when it actually does rain a lot, like a heavy rain fall, it's so beautiful. Same goes with snow, except I don't love it... I like it. I like looking at it from inside, but I hate going outside in the snow when I don't want to... it's so cold and I can't stand be cold. I love having my license. I love the freedom, and the responsibility that comes with it. I can go where ever (well, you know, like friend's house, out with friends, shopping, etc.), without asking my parents to take me... well, I will be able to do that once I get a car. I 've been going to Skipco, a car auction, with my grandpa and Uncle Steve trying to win. We haven't won yet, so I have to keep going every Saturday morning until we do. I hate going, but I guess I have to since it is my money that will be spent on a car. I hate not winning every week. Me and Eric have been talking a lot about going to New York City this summer... well, not a lot, but we talked about it the other night. He thinks we should go after his cousin's wedding, but then that leads like a week before band camp for me... and we want to stay a week too... I don't think we can that week then... Plus, I don't want to miss any band. Haha, I'm a band nerd... that's okay. I really hope my parents will let me go. I don't think they'd let me go with just my boyfriend, I mean come on, they will assume that we will have sex, even though we won't. Because I don't want to. I'm far too young to. Plus absense is freedom, yo. But I don't think they will believe that anyway, 'cause we're teenagers... But anyway, I really would like to visit New York City this summer. It would be amazing. I love New York. There is so much I want to see that I didn't get to chance to when we went. It would be so amazing. Last night Eric and I hung out. First we got Subway because we didn't want fast food. I got a turkey sub and a bag of chips... and apple juice. I'm trying to eat better, but it's not working well... Then we rented Accepted... It wasn't that good, but then we played Guitar Hero and talked a bit. I love that kid a lot. He's amazing. <3 Me and Jeff are fighting and I hate it so much. I'm going crazy because of it. We started fighting because I was mad because we haven't talked in almost a month. Like a long time ago, something was bothering me and I wanted to talk to Jeffrey about it, but we never talked 'cause we was always so busy, and so was I... But he never made an effort, he never told me he missed me, I told him all the time. And we've basically been fighting because of that, because we never talk anymore... I miss him... and he never calls, and I don't want to call 'cause Idk... but I don't know anymore. So, I've been thinking about college, and I have no idea where I want to go, or what I want to be. I really do hope I get the oppertinity to live at college though. I would much rather do that than live at home. Really. I don't know... I should start thinking about it though... I still need to take the SAT... and the ACT again. I can't wait until Disney! I almost have my trip payed off... I just need to get $269 from my trip account and I'm payed off. w00t. I hope I get to ride bus one... I rode it when I was a freshman and it was so fun with Cole and Jack. I've never been to Flordia before, so I admit, I'm excited. :)
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(no subject)	[Aug. 1st, 2006\|02:27 pm]
Well this hasn't been updated in forever and a day so here I go. I don't have much to say. I've actually been happy lately, except being pestered all the time, being called all the time. It's annoy as fuck after a while. I need to finish my homework. If only the books weren't boring... sigh Yeah, I need to go read. Oh, and guess what? I love Eric <3
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(no subject)	[May. 14th, 2006\|01:40 pm]
Written about two years ago: If you... If you broke my heart, would I cry? Or would I die? Would I cry enough to fill a lake? Yes, because you mean everything to me. I would never abuse you, I could never lose you. Because you are everything to me.
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Simpsons.	[May. 9th, 2006\|06:51 pm]
DOUG Hi. Question for Ms. Bellamy. In episode 2F09, when Itchy plays Scratchy's skeleton like a xylophone, he strikes the same rib twice in succession, yet he produces two clearly different tones. I mean, what are we to believe, that this is some sort of a... (sniggering) magic xylophone or something? Boy, I really hope somebody got fired for that blunder. BELLAMY Uh, well, uh... HOMER I'll field that one. Let me ask you a question. Why would a man whose shirt says "Genius at Work" spend all of his time watching a children's cartoon show? DOUG (embarrassed) I withdraw my question. (eats a chocolate bar)
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[Apr. 19th, 2006|11:28 pm]

Bold all that apply to you.

You like showers better than bubble baths.
You cannot stand pop music.
You have 1 sister.
You are an only child.
You have brown hair.
You have blonde hair.
You have red hair.
You have glasses.
You wear contacts.
You like TV more than movies.
You don't talk on the phone often.
You like to shop.
You like emo music.
You are tall.
You are short.
You are average height.
You have long hair.
You have medium length hair.
You have short hair.
You use AIM.
You use Yahoo IM.
You have more than 3 pets.
You like sushi.
You are on a diet.
You live in New York.
You live in California.
You live in Texas.
You are currently on the second floor of your house.
You have a small room.
You are in high school.
You have 1 little brother.
You have 1 older brother.
You are allergic to something.
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
You have a current crush.
You have many crushes.
You have been kissed.
You have kissed another girl.
You laugh a lot.
You have lots of friends.
You are lonely.
You are depressed.
You are listening to music.
You are doing homework.
You have school tomorrow.
You are sick.
You hate your teacher.
You think your teacher is OK.
There is drama in your school, constantly.
You are wearing sweat pants.
You are wearing socks.
You are wearing a T shirt.
You have lost a loved one.
You hate your school.
You love your school.
You can live with your school, for now.
You have been picked on.
You have been yelled at.
You have gotten in a fight.
You have said a bad word.
You shop at Abercrombie and Fitch.
You play basketball.
You play softball.
You play baseball.
You play soccer.
You play football.
You like the New England Patriots.
You like the Indianapolis Colts.
You like the Pittsburgh Steelers.
You like the Green Bay Packers.
You like the Detroit Pistons.
You like the Miami Heat.
You like the Los Angeles Lakers.
You like the Cleveland Cavaliers.
You hate sports.
You get manicures.
You shop at Pac Sun.
You go to the mall alot.
You are clsoe with your family.
You never fight with your parents.
You have been grounded.
You have driven a car.
You are listening to your ipod.
You are watching TV.
You are watching a movie.
You are listening to the radio.
You are singing.
You are happy.
You are sad.
You are blah.
You are anxious.
You are about to go some where.
You haven't been out of your house for over 3 days.
Someone besides you is in the same room with you.
You love your natural hair.
You hate your eye color.
You wish you were never born.
You write your own songs.
You write books.
You hate to write.
You hate your hometown.
You love your hometown.
You are smart.
You are average.
You are dumb.
You get good grades.
You enjoy having people at your house.
You love going to the movies with a lot of people.
You like to go bowling with your friends.
You have ice-skated before.
You like popsicles.
You think Vanilla is better than Chocolate.

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(no subject)	[Apr. 19th, 2006\|10:40 pm]
Bold All That Apply~ I like coffee I like fans I like castles I like green I like yellow I like red I like lava I like fangs I like dragons I like vampires I like goths I like emos I like preps I like Green Day I like Simple Plan I like NSync I like Backstreet Boys* I like Dragostea Din Tei I like Good Charlotte I like Coldplay I like Keane I like The Beatles I like moose I like cats I like dogs I like pigs I like cows I like snakes :W I like pillows I like swimming I like candy I like chocolate I like sunny days I like rainy days I like windy days I like nightime I like city lights I like the cooountray (country life) I like the USA I like Australia I like the UK I like France I like Canada I like Iraq I like Mexico I like Russia I like Italy I like New Zeland I like Greece I like Belgium I like Austria I like socks I like summer I like autumn/fall I like winter I like spring I like snow I like tornadoes I like hurricanes I like earthquakes I like Jeff Corwin I like Steve Irwin I like Cash Peters I like Pee Wee Herman I like Michael Jackson I like George W. Bush I like Johnny Depp I like Emma Watson I like Kelly Osbourne I like Gwen Stefani I like Mary-Kate & Ashley I like Converses I like Ecko brand I like Nike brand I like wearing suites I like wearing dresses I like techno I like rock I like pop I like country I like rap I like classical I like oldies I like this survey I like hot tubs I like scary animals :W I like big butts (and I can not lie!) I like carpet I like warmth I like coldness I like candles I like wax I like perfume I like cologne I like fire I like sharp objects I like dancing I like singing I like drawing I like writing I like reading I like bubble bath I like the smell of burning wood I like the smell of burning flesh I like ties I like the colour black I like video games I like TV I like computers I like being done with this survey
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(no subject)	[Apr. 19th, 2006\|10:39 pm]
From a while ago: evilcheese27 (10:11:15 PM): I just always thought that Taylor would think the same way i did... like the notebook, they were seperated so long, but they came back together in the end. evilcheese27 (10:11:26 PM): that's what i have/ had hopes for. evilcheese27 (10:11:34 PM): But I'm just afraid he will forget about me. musicmonkey02 (10:11:45 PM): i hope it works out that way.. i honest to God do.. if there is any decency in this world
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[Apr. 19th, 2006|10:34 pm]

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Is it sad that I've liked him since 6th grade when I met him? Seriously, I was looking at my diary from back then, and I always wrote about him. I shouldn't have read all that. It really just me sad again. I can't believe I've like him, hell, loved him so long. That's crazy shit. And now he could care less for me, yet I still love him. Seriously, who still likes someone they liked in 6th grade? That's just... I don't even know. Arg. I need to call him. Just to tell him something though. Nothing of any importance though. Should I call him... I don't know. Everytime I do, he makes me cry so hard that I can't even breath or anything. I'm afraid to call him because I 'm afraid more pain will come... Should I call him or not... I don't know. Arg. I can't get him out of my head. Why do I want to be with him so much when he has hurt me so much.... I don't get it. I'm dumb. I should really just give up, get over him, but the truth is, I don't think I'll ever get over him. Ever. I think I really did love him. I think I really do love him still. But he really doesn't want me in my life. After a year and seven months, he's done with me. All the times he has told me he loved me, don't matter, he was lying. That's all I can figure. How can you really love someone, then break up with them and pretend like you never dated, like you never loved them. He couldn't have loved me if that's how he is acting. It doesn't make any sense. If he loved me, he might show the slightest sign. But he doesn't. He doesn't love me and I don't think he ever has. He can't... I just wish he did. I know I was in love with him and he was in love with me... How can those feelings just go away? I don't get it. I try and look back, but it's like we were never together, like nothing ever happened... I hate that. I know I'm never going to forget him, but I forget how it feels to be held in his arm. His hugs are the only ones that make me happy. I forget how it feels to hold his hand, even though his is the only hand I want to hold. I feel like it was all a dream. I don't get it. I miss him so bad, but it feels like it never even happened... How does that work? I want to be with him so bad, yet he doesn't care about me. I want a second chance, that's all, a second chance. Do you believe people deserve second chances? Well, I do and I would give anything for one with him... If he would only give me one. *Sigh* I love him too much. Why can't I stop? Really, you'd think in six months I would almost be over him. But I keep thinking of him nonstop... I can't stop. I don't want to forget about what we had, and I don't want him to forget either... but I know he will. I seriously think about my future and want him to be in there somewhere. We're going to go away to college and never see each other again. I would hate that so much. Why can't I get him out of my head, out of my future, out? Because I don't want him out. I want him to stay in, stay mine. But he doesn't want to be mine. Really. Second chances, anyone believe in them? Why won't he give me one? I love him far too much and it won't stop. You never realize how much you care for someone, until they stop caring about you. That is so true. I didn't know that I wanted to be with him, until he stopped loving me. I suppose I should have gave him a second chance, he wanted one, but it was too soon. It's not anymore, but now it's too late.

don`t know if i like you, want you,
love you, or hate you -- all i know is
that i hate the feeling i get when
i`m not with you..

cory: it just sucks you know?
shawn: what? to know it's over?
cory: no. to be the only one in the world who knows its not

"If you truly love someone with all your heart, Let them go. If they come back, they are always yours. If not, they never were."

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(no subject)	[Apr. 12th, 2006\|10:42 pm]
I have bungee Jumped. I have rock climbed. I have sky dived. I have eaten Sushi. I have done drugs. I have tried alcohol. I have thought about being anorexic. I have cheated on a test. I have cried over a guy. I have cried over a friend. I have had my first kiss. I have played DDR. I have written lyrics to a song. I have been to Six Flags. I have been to the bahamas. I have eaten animal toungue. I have eaten animal stomach. I have been on TV. I have been in a movie. I have more than 1 middle name. I watch American Idol. I have been told that I never stop smiling. I own the Jesse McCartney CD. I haven't been sick this month. I like Dollar General. Shopping is dumb. Money makes people happy. I like the smell of permanent marker. I know all of the Britney Spears songs. I like to eat and watch TV at the same time. My face looks like this: =D. I wear too many hair accessories I get stressed out easy. I am on medication. I like oranges. I have the hiccups a lot. I use a lot of abbreviations online. I wear thongs. Pink is my favorite color. I have been in a hurricane. I know a Melanie. I wish too much. I own Certain Dri. I get pizza delivered to my house a lot. I work. I think about strange things. I own something with rainbow on it. I had spaghetti sometime this week. I have never ridden in a airplane. I sing in the shower. I like to take bubble baths. Long nails are scary. ((if they're way too long yeah)) My car has neon lights. I feel cute right now. I don't live in a community. My bus driver is a woman. I don't hate anyone. I am very optimistic. I have a security system in my house. I have had shin splints before. I have gone out of country for a camp before. Candles are all over my house. The lights are on in the room I am in. I watch Sports Center. I have a Hallmark card. I sew. I suck at cooking yet still do it. Yellowcard is a good band. I bought the ClickFive CD. Personality tests are fun to take. I go invisible online a lot. I am always thinking about the future. I saw "Wedding Crashers" in theaters. Lindsay Lohan is a good actress. My head itches. I can't go anywhere without my phone. My friends think they're better than me. I think I'm better than my friends. Everything happens for a reason. I have lied today. Tan is the color of my house. I draw hearts a lot. Too many people ask me for rides. Valentine's Day is my favorite holiday. I like mint chocolate chip ice cream. Praying mantis' are cool looking. I keep a lot of things private. My birthday is within the next month. I have had a song played just for me. I have been white water rafting. I have never kissed a guy. It is earlier than 8 in the morning. I listen to Relient K. I have an indoor job. I have a digital camera. I'm a girl My name begins with the letter M I have a best friend I consider myself unpopular I'm a big flirt I'm in 8th grade I live in Pennsylvania I have a wonderful boyfriend (Had) I have many enemies I'm an angry person I'm part of the hardcore scene I hate rap music I have a lot of guyfriends I'm a cheerleader I play soccer I love summer vacation I'm very preppy I hate country music I go to church every weekend I'm completely devoted to my religion I live in a small house I am currently crushing on somebody My heart is broken right now I also have a myspace My school has a lot of drama Rumors spread very fast in my school I consider myself the life of the party I have over 100 friends ((on myspace)) I own a cell phone I have a little sister I have an older brother My favorite color is pink I'm spoiled All my grandparents are still alive I'm arachnophobic I know how to drive I like to go to camp over the summer (band camp) I've failed a grade I'm a straight A student I'm bisexual I hate people who hate emos ...But I am not emo. I've had more than 10 boyfriends I cry a lot I'm a cutter I'm a suicidal My favorite soda is Mountain Dew I love chocolate I own a dog I own a cat Oprah is my idol I've been to a foreign country I think John Kerry should have won the election I'm in a band I can write really good poetry and songs I own a pair of converse My room is covered in posters I've been to a pool party I've been out past my curfew I've gone too far with a guy I plan on getting married I plan on having kids I weigh less than 200 pounds I consider myself skinny The mall is my home I shop at stores like Hot Topic I live in a one story house I live in Texas My favorite football team are the Steelers My favorite basketball team are the lakers I attend a highschool thats really hard to get into I have no problems with gay people I believe in God I hate watching the news on TV My favorite book series is Harry Potter I take the bus home from school I like green eyes in guys I like skater/emo guys I have a lip ring I have a tattoo I love to dance I've been on stage before I wear mini skirts a lot I'm cute I have a lot of stuffed animals actually, i collect them i collect weird things i use zit cream i don't watch MTV ever the person who bolded that last one must be boring my family pisses me off only my siblings piss me off i'm in love right now i buy expensive things a lot i'm possibly the only person on the planet who does not own an MP3 player i read tabloids shamelessly i love sending e-cards i hate my screenname i would change my xanga username but i don't want to lose all my stuff i talk to myself i'm a tad obsessed with hand sanitizer i eat granola bars but i'm not a hippie i eat granola bars and i am a hippie don't stereotype me stereotype me. i wear jelly bracelets. i used to wear jelly bracelets. when i grow up, i'm determined to be famous i'd rather be infamous than famous i've stolen something i've tried eating something, and then spit it right back out i worry about the future i can't get over the past i wish i could stop stressing the weather channel is awesome i saw hurricane katrina firsthand my thumb is shorter than my ear is tall red lipstick is hot i can recite the gettysburg address from heart i love IMing i have at least 200 buddies on my buddy list i do crossword puzzles to pass the time i'm always looking for something my parents dont know about my tattoo i read nonfiction books the most i love little necklaces next time i get my hair cut i'm getting a bob sienna miller has great clothes old people kind of scare me sometimes i have visited asia holiday shopping sucks i'm older than 15 my birthday is in the summer my parents are still together i'm younger than 15 i love going to school i actually hate one of my own friends i'm in high school i have a job i have a boyfriend/girlfriend i love orange juice i think i'm ugly i have a lip ring i love to dance i hate people of my own sex i am lactose intolerant i am a virgin i am not a virgin i love to sing i can bake i believe in ghosts i am scared of the dark i believe in astrology ((meh)) i am in love with love i know how to shoot a gun i am really ticklish i laugh a lot i am clinically depressed i have run away from home i've shoplifted i've gotten arrested i have lied to my parents about something big i have gone behind my parent's back & gotten a tattoo/piercing i have sworn at a teacher/parent i have dated someone behind my parent's back i have been suspended i have been expelled i have snuck out of the house i've cheated on a test i've gotten a ticket i've driven & don't have my license yet i've gotten in a fist fight i've witnessed a crime i have consumed alcohol i drink a lot i have gotten drunk at a family party i have been drunk i've done drugs i have been taken advantage of because i was high/drunk i have passed out in a bar from being drunk in the past 6 months i have done inhalents i am religious i dress modestly i don't give a care about religion i am not modest i am a republican i am a democrat i am not involved with politics i love george bush i hate him i think it's ok to cheat on your boyfriend/girlfriend i think having piercings other than one in each earlobe is barbaric and immoral i have a tattoo i am against people who have tattoos i don't like tattoos --i have seen...-- the notebook donnie darko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! garden state moulin rouge school of rock edward scissorhands!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ten things i hate about you not another teen movie american pie get rich or die tryin a christmas story hitch a lot like love legally blonde must love dogs the island house of wax the pianist grease rent dukes of hazzard a cinderella story the longest yard breakfast at tiffany's finding nemo bad news bears the godfather american beauty napoleon dynamite the matrix million dollar baby wicker park the ring the honeymooners crash crossroads the breakfast club gigli glitter i know what you did last summer diary of a mad black woman clueless fifty first dates dark water jarhead --past experiences-- broken a bone wrote a love letter sent that love letter gotten married had a child made a movie made an "adult" movie recorded a song wrote a song been in a wedding bought a grossly expensive handbag been in a fashion magazine burned something to ashes accidentally blew something up got stuck in a rollercoaster dyed my hair dyed someone else's hair kissed underwater wrote a poem cussed out a random person proposed to someone had a one-night stand stole something stole something i could never afford earned $500 or more in a day pierced something myself painted a beautiful picture had cybersex got lost in the woods recieved a death threat got egged --stuff-- I love listening to Elvis. I eat peanut butter and jelly daily. I would die without my computer. I am a good kisser. ((i hope?)) I prefer dinner and a movie over any other first date. I eat my ravioli with a spoon. I think Keith Urban is the hottest guy alive. I'm a sucker for a guy with shaggy hair. I am very patriotic. I am very religious. I wish on stars. I eat toast with jelly. Windows Media player is my default music player. I have over 50 cds. I have curtains that match my bed. My bedroom door is white. I dance to music when I get ready for school. I get cold really easily. My cell phone is silver. My parents are divorced. I have bangs. My finger nails are colored pink. I love the way I draw hearts. I have some one to call my own The best thing about my physical appearence is my eyes. I text faster than I can write. I drink starbucks daily. I've seen every Disney classic. I listen to country music. I've been to more than 5 concerts. If I could only have one makeup product it would be black eyeliner. I've lost friends due to highschool drama. I have to dip my cookies in milk before I eat them. I love the 80's I want a fairytale story to tell. I have green eyes. I match my undergarments together, and then match those to my outfit. If I could be a crayon I would be yellow. I have to blare my music or else I won't sing along. Sharpies are the best pen/marker since like... ever! I've seen over 5 musicals. I plan to join the circus when I'm old enough. I collect(ed) beanie babies. My tennis shoes are white with some other color. I like techno music. I wear more than 3 accesories everyday. I love to to skateboard. Summer is my favorite season. I plan to go all around the world before I die. I can not draw. I have strange eating habits. I am currently obsessed with someone/something. I love xanga. I just ate a sandwich. I am from a house. I was born in October. I enjoy reading. I am not on anti-depressants. I bite my nails I am in love with Johnny Knoxville. I like English class. I've lost my cell phone twice. I hope someday I'll find happiness. I like some sports. I am quick witted. I often stare into nothing. I like board games. I appreciate gratitude. I can usually sleep even when I'm not tired. I am too lazy. I hate the smell of movie popcorn. I constantly procrastinate. I have never done hardcore drugs before. I wish I had better grades. Stupid people amuse me. I hate when people judge others without knowing them. I love hot chocolate. I like kids. I hate cabbage. I dress casually. I am judgmental. I don't have a favorite television show. I'm not a senior in high school. I am single. :( I go to ECR. I like Garlic Bread. I love summer. I haven't seen Marilyn Manson in concert. I can be harsh. It annoys me when people disrespect nature. I am a hypocrite. I wish i could vote in the 2008 presidential election. I am trustworthy. I wish I could play guitar or sing. I want to get my hair cut. The silence after a long discussion when you're trying to think of what to say next is terrible. I burn my own cds. I am not passive. The best thing about a guy is his personality. I often put others before myself. I hate it when I don't understand what the lyrics of a song mean. My mother is a fucking bitch. I am currently smoke-free. I'm half korean and half white. Stupid people really confuse me. I like showers. I love surprises. I'm not fond of confrontation. Sometimes I laugh about absolutely nothing. The known makes me uneasy. I am perfectly comfortable with knowing that I will eventually die. I hate cold showers. I sometimes speak just to fill silence. I am afraid of not having control over my future. I wish I could visit New York. I like to keep life exciting. I have ran into a tree. I have walked into windows. I like looking at and taking pictures. I don't know how to play pool. My favorite sport to watch is basketball. I learn song lyrics quickly. I like candles. I like(d) school sometimes. I am annoyed by phony people. I have studied one language besides English in my life. I don't have a favorite color. I am avoiding homework, thats why I am doing this. I usually hold doors. I have 1 sister. I don't like when people brag. I had a bad camping experience. I really want to find love. I like people with a really good sense of humor. I like taking my time, yet Im impatient with others. I was just on the phone. I like color coordinating my clothes. My hair is brown. I have never dyed my hair. I reminisce to myself a lot. I am fond of Dave Matthews Band. I don't know who Saul Williams is. I am not a needy person. My bedroom is always messy. I dont like some fancy jewelry
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Birthday	[Apr. 7th, 2006\|10:03 pm]
Go to Wikipedia and look up your birthday (excluding the year). List three neat facts, two births and one death in your journal, including the year. August 31st. Events: 1920 - First news radio program broadcast in Detroit, Michigan. 1939 - Nazi Germany mounts a staged attack on Gleiwitz radio station, giving them an excuse to attack Poland the following day, starting World War II in Europe. 1997 - Diana, Princess of Wales, dies in a car crash in Paris. Births: 1972 - Chris Tucker, American actor 1977 - Jeff Hardy, American professional wrestler Death: 2005 - Michael Sheard, British actor (b. 1940)
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(no subject)	[Mar. 31st, 2006\|11:24 pm]
Bold what applies to you. 1. I order water when I go to restraunts instead of soda 2. I carry hand sanitizer in my purse 3. I'm doing this instead of homework 4. I type really fast 5. 90% of my bras are black 6. I think Pete Wentz from Fall Out Boy is cute 7. My handwriting is unique 8. My handwriting changes with my mood 9. Most of my exes are Mexican 10. I paint my toenails out of boredom 11. People say I have my dad's nose 12. I'm a 90s kid 13. Bad grammar makes me want to dig my eyes out with a spoon 14. Don't bother talking to me online iF yEw tYpE l1Ke D1s 15. I'm in an honors class 16. My shortest relationship was a month 17. I like eating with chopsticks 18. I love Pocky 19. I eat more fruits than vegetables 20. I like corn in my mac & cheese 21. I lie to my parents alot 22. I love my mom 23. ...but she annoys me alot 24. One of my exes is now one of my best friends 25. I've made out with JUST a friend before 26. I plan to go help at my elementry school for community service 27. I wish I had a nice body 28. Ok, I admit it: I sing into my hairbrush 29. I've tripped over my own two feet before 30. I can laugh at myself easily 31. I find shy guys cute 32. I adore blue eyes 33. I want to be the opposite sex...just for a day, though 34. I've used the opposite sex's bathroom before 35. I don't need blush - my cheeks are naturally rosy 36. I think lipstick is tacky 37. I prefer lip gloss over lipstick 38. I've ditched school & went to another campus before 39. I love flavored lip gloss 40. I cut my split ends in class 41. I'm a stomach sleeper 42. I adore Eeyore 43. Saturday morning cartoons? Heck yes! 44. Most of my friends are Mexican 45. I want to learn German 46. My great grandma is still alive 47. I can sing the alphabet backwards 48. I can't swim 49. I don't like my last name that much 50. I make random lists out of boredom
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boldness.	[Mar. 31st, 2006\|11:20 pm]
01. I'm single. 02. I love the color blue 03. Shopping is fun 04. I love Rent 05. I think gay marriage should be approved 06. I'm obsessed with musical theater. 07. I enjoy scrapbooking. 08. I love the color pink. 09. I love to wear sandals 10. I LOVE hugs. 11. I like to take pictures. 12. I am a blonde. 13. I like root beer. 14. I love to drink water 15. I'm a drama queen. 16. I love dark chocolate 17. My best friend is exactly like me 18. I'm going to New York soon 19. I love Finding Nemo 20. I love going to concerts. 21. I'm going to the Tony awards 22. I need to apply myself more. 23. I know that I need more sleep 24. I hate needles 25. I would never get a tattoo. 26. I'm taking piano lessons. 27. I love Reeses 28. I'm going to be a sophmore. 29. I always take showers 30. I love to swim. 31. I want to travel 33. I hate being bored 34. I'm too lazy! 35. I love to watch Friends 36. I love American Idol. 37. I'd rather have a small group of close friends than a large group of friends that I didn't know all that well 38. I want to go to Northwestern University. 39. I'm in chorus at school. 40. Getting new things is always fun. 41. I love giving gifts 42. I enjoy recieving them as well 43. I'm loud in some classes and quiet in others. 44. I love watching films. 45. I am very crazy at times. 46. I love massages 47. I make money by performing in musicals. 48. I hate social studies. 49. I like aol 50. I love using the computer. 51. I think too much. 52. Math is useless. 53. I love to write and type random things. 54. I eat too much junk food. 55. Moulin Rouge makes me cry. 56. My favorite movie is Waiting for Guffman. 57. I have a sister. 58. I like to sing. 59. I also like to act. 60. I want to be famous! 61. I have a GPA of 4.0. 62. I scare people sometimes 63. I love the Disney Channel 64. I hate it when people judge others. 65. I love watching tv. 66. I miss Boy Meets World. 67. I'm so mad/sad about the Rent movie 68. I've been to every American Idol concert. 69. I go to Ravinia all the time. 70. I'm listening to Radio AOL. 71. I love listening to music. 72. I like to read. 73. I have blue eyes. 74. I love wearing skirts. 75. I love pets 76. I love ice cream. 77. I hate school 78. I like to talk. 79. Guys are confusing. 80. I love the 80s. 81. I'd love to have the money to buy things for people for no reason at all. 82. I love the 90s 83. I enjoy being single. 84. I love Ed Debevics. 85. I want to live in NYC. 86. I wake up at 5 on school days. 87. I would love to visit the Mall of America. 88. I already went through braces. 89. I love shopping at Kohls. 90. I always listen to music in the car. 91. I hate when people are mean. 92. If I leave my hair to dry it goes curly 93. I don't like pop music 94. I'd do anything for my friends. 95. I live for the summer. 96. My hero is Jonathan Larson. 97. I love both of my parents 98. My sign is Aries. 99. I hate Hilary Duff. 100. I love recieving e-mail's/ims/Xanga Comments/My Space comments/etc.
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Meow.

[Mar. 5th, 2006|05:11 pm]

[	feelings	\|	thoughtful	]
[	sounds	\|	Rent	]

I love my cousins. They are cuties. So fun to play with... Sarah was jumping off the walls, it was cute. And Jarod fixed my hair for me. It was only me and Celia from my cousins.

Oh, and I got my temps. I've already drived an hour and a half I think. I'm not to good at it though. But I passed my test with 94%. And I saw an old friend... fun stuff.

I'm taking the ACT on April 8th. I don't think I'll do well... what are you going to do.

I need to do my english homework for Rindizzle.... yeah, I said it. haha. I'm glad it's almost summer.... almost... sure.... we'll go with that.

Gah. I love Rent! Today for you, tommorow for me.

Tommorow is a bad day. I seriously wish I could skip school... or something. It's going to be a sad day for me. I think back to this weekend two years ago and just sigh, and I also think back to it a year ago and I'm sad. Yeah, I miss him, I'm fine without him, but I miss him. I think I'll write him a note for tommorow.

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(no subject)	[Mar. 4th, 2006\|10:32 pm]
TEN FIRSTS First Best Friends: Rachel Roan. First Hamster: Ginger First Piercing: my ears but I got them taken out. First Crush: Taylor, sixth grade. First CD: Backstreet Boys First Car: N/a First Love: Taylor. First Stuffed Animal: stuffed bear. NINE LASTS Last Alchoholic Beverage: n/a Last Vehicle Ride: Today Last Movie Seen: Rent and Titanic at home... Harry Potter in theatures. Last Phone Call: Bruce. Last CD Played: Rent. Last Bubble Bath: I dont know Last Time You Cried: A few weeks ago... almost cryed at Titanic though. EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS Have you ever dated one of your best friends: Yeah Have you ever been arrested: nope Have you ever skinny dipped: no. Have you ever been on TV: yes. Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: yes. Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew: no. SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING 1. jacket 2. ankle braclet 3. t-shirt 4. PJ Pants 5. balarina slippers 6. shorts. 7. tank top. SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY 1. woke up 2. got dressed 3. got temps. 4. drove 5. watched Titanic. 6. got on the computer FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER 1. friends 2. music. 3. being (in) love 4. Reading. 5. Writing FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO 1 Liz 2 Sam 3 4 THREE CHOICES 1. eat or drink: drink (water!) 2. blonde or brunnette: brunnette. 3. pink or black: both. together TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE 1. Know truely I'm in love. 2. Weigh 100 pounds (again.) ONE THING YOU REGRET 1. Dating someone for so long.
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[Mar. 4th, 2006|10:17 pm]

Answer these questions using only Google Image search. don't choose any pictures beyond the first page of results.

1. your first name: Rebecca

2. Your Middle Name: Nadine

3. Your Last Name: snyder

4. Age You'll Be On Your Next Birthday: 16

5. Your Favorite Color: hot pink & black

6. A Place You Want To Be Kissed, But Haven't: Anywhere

7. Bad Habit You Have: making myself become depressed

8. Favorite Fruit apple

9. Favorite Animal: cow

10. Last Name of Your Favorite Teacher: floyd, boston, wallace, netta, luton, Cole, Stein.

Floyd:

Boston:

Wallace:

Netta:

Luton:

Cole:

Stein:

11. Name of Your Pet: Button
- My Uncle did work with "Bob"

12. Best Friend's Nickname: Al or Lizzy

Al:

Lizzy:

13. The One You Love: No one.

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Another real entry	[Feb. 10th, 2006\|11:57 pm]
Rebecca is emo because of one person. But that's okay. We'll get over it one day... or not. Probably not, but we'll pretend. Family Dinner was good tonight. It was Liz, Sam, and Alexis. Sam and I were married and Liz was accident number one, the good one, and Alexis was number two.... It was so much fun, but you probably had to be there. Contest tommorow. I am going to fail. Hot Damn. I have to be there at 10 for Andrew so it better be worth it. That kid is awesome. I suppose I kinda like him... We'll pretend.
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A real entry.

[Feb. 2nd, 2006|10:57 pm]

[	Tags	\|	a real entry	]
[	feelings	\|	tired	]

Arg. This is never how I thought things would work. Everytime I talk to him on the phone, I end up crying. No matter what we talk about, like movies, whatever, it just makes me really sad and I need up thinking about the past. I wish I could forget about the past and move to the future, but it's hard as hell. Fuck, we even flirted on the phone a little and that hurt like hell. Why is it so hard to get over someone? It hurts so much. I wish we could go back to being friends, but that's too hard. He was one of my best friends, I told him everything, we were amazing... what happened? I don't just miss him as a boyfriend, but as a friend. I'm afraid to talk to him at school or in person because I'm afraid that the same affect that happens on the phone might also happen in person. I miss just being his friend. I miss seeing him, listening to him talk, everything. Why can't I get over him? It makes me so upset. I'm tired of crying. I miss that kid too much.

I need to get over him. This is killing me. Really.

But if I think about it, I just also have thought it was going to end up like the Notebook. I still do think that. But I'm afraid he doesn't think anything of the sort... I don't know. In the Notebook, they were seperated so long, but in the end, they figured out they were meant to be.

Fuck, I might not even know Taylor in the future, I don't know now, but I still think this... I'm probably wrong, but I still have faith that something like that might happen. I wish. I'm so afraid he'll forget about me, just not want to even be my friend, forget everything we had.

I know my friends hate him... Like I said before, they don't know him how I know him. I know everything about him... well a ton about him... too much.

I need to get over him. He doesn't love/ like me, I shouldn't love him either... erm, right? My friends are right when they tell me this, and I know it's going to be hard... I don't even think I want to do it. But I suppose I need to... It's so fucking hard... I'm trying, I just don't think I can.....

evilcheese27 (10:11:15 PM): I just always thought that Taylor would think the same way i did... like the notebook, they were seperated so long, but they came back together in the end.
evilcheese27 (10:11:26 PM): that's what i have/ had hopes for.
evilcheese27 (10:11:34 PM): But I'm just afraid he will forget about me.
musicmonkey02 (10:11:45 PM): i hope it works out that way.. i honest to God do.. if there is any decency in this world

I'm so afraid of the future... but I shouldn't be. The Bible even says so in Matthew 6: 34

"Therefore do not worry about tommorow, for tommorow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"

I have to agree with that.

Written by me on 12/11/05:

"Of course. I do love him, but he hurts me so much sometimes. I know I can't be with him right now. It is so hard to try and let him go and not love him. I know I do love him, yet somethings keep me from wanting to be with him. Perhaps it is the fighting. He also doesn't like how I dress or how I act, it annoys me how he wants to change me sometimes. I love Taylor, but I know I can't be with him in my life right now."

Yes, it is from my notebook.... but I just felt like writing it here... I dunno.

On a happier note, The Pit needs more Cowbell <3 Kt, Rb, Sb, Markilious, Danching Machine, and Chelsea.

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woot.	[Jan. 29th, 2006\|04:52 pm]
That's right... if you haven't heard yet... I'm single again. Not happy, not sad. I just don't want a serious relationship. Plus, I've determined that guys are dicks... well most of them. David didn't do anything wrong, don't think that. I just would rather date than be serious. Boyfriends aren't worth the time. Plus, high school is for finding brides mates, right? But I think I have a date for Sweethearts.... Shaun Hall... He's a freshman. Rocky Horror Picture Show was fucking amazing. Alexis, Brittany, Sam, my mom, and I went. Shaun was there, as was Angela and Clinton. Shaun, Brittany, Alexis, and I sat in the front row so it was amazinger. I took a ton of pictures. I looked like a total whore, but that's okay, it's Rocky Horror. Mark didn't show up, neither did Mrs. Lee... It made me irate... okay, not really, but I wished that Mark would have came. I'll post the pictures soon I hope.
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