||[Jan. 14th, 2007|01:10 pm]
I love rain. It's so poetic when it falls, like the rain hitting the ground is beautiful. I don't like, however, when the sky is grey and cloudy and it looks like it's going to rain and it never does. It's depressing. But when it actually does rain a lot, like a heavy rain fall, it's so beautiful. Same goes with snow, except I don't love it... I like it. I like looking at it from inside, but I hate going outside in the snow when I don't want to... it's so cold and I can't stand be cold.|
I love having my license. I love the freedom, and the responsibility that comes with it. I can go where ever (well, you know, like friend's house, out with friends, shopping, etc.), without asking my parents to take me... well, I will be able to do that once I get a car. I 've been going to Skipco, a car auction, with my grandpa and Uncle Steve trying to win. We haven't won yet, so I have to keep going every Saturday morning until we do. I hate going, but I guess I have to since it is my money that will be spent on a car. I hate not winning every week.
Me and Eric have been talking a lot about going to New York City this summer... well, not a lot, but we talked about it the other night. He thinks we should go after his cousin's wedding, but then that leads like a week before band camp for me... and we want to stay a week too... I don't think we can that week then... Plus, I don't want to miss any band. Haha, I'm a band nerd... that's okay. I really hope my parents will let me go. I don't think they'd let me go with just my boyfriend, I mean come on, they will assume that we will have sex, even though we won't. Because I don't want to. I'm far too young to. Plus absense is freedom, yo. But I don't think they will believe that anyway, 'cause we're teenagers... But anyway, I really would like to visit New York City this summer. It would be amazing. I love New York. There is so much I want to see that I didn't get to chance to when we went. It would be so amazing.
Last night Eric and I hung out. First we got Subway because we didn't want fast food. I got a turkey sub and a bag of chips... and apple juice. I'm trying to eat better, but it's not working well... Then we rented Accepted... It wasn't that good, but then we played Guitar Hero and talked a bit. I love that kid a lot. He's amazing. <3
Me and Jeff are fighting and I hate it so much. I'm going crazy because of it. We started fighting because I was mad because we haven't talked in almost a month. Like a long time ago, something was bothering me and I wanted to talk to Jeffrey about it, but we never talked 'cause we was always so busy, and so was I... But he never made an effort, he never told me he missed me, I told him all the time. And we've basically been fighting because of that, because we never talk anymore... I miss him... and he never calls, and I don't want to call 'cause Idk... but I don't know anymore.
So, I've been thinking about college, and I have no idea where I want to go, or what I want to be. I really do hope I get the oppertinity to live at college though. I would much rather do that than live at home. Really. I don't know... I should start thinking about it though... I still need to take the SAT... and the ACT again.
I can't wait until Disney! I almost have my trip payed off... I just need to get $269 from my trip account and I'm payed off. w00t. I hope I get to ride bus one... I rode it when I was a freshman and it was so fun with Cole and Jack. I've never been to Flordia before, so I admit, I'm excited. :)